It has been a long time between posts and well, I chastise myself for that. So much has happened in the meantime.
I spent many years saying “No to God,”as I am sure some of you have too. I was raised in a family that believed God existed, but didn’t believe in organized religion. That being said, I also lived in a smallish town where some of the local churches sent buses around to the local neighborhoods to pick up children that wanted to attend Sunday school and church. Let me just say, if a bus came by… I was on it. I was constantly seeking God, I don’t think I ever really understood why I was seeking Him, but I was running hard after Him. Now I look back and I realize that it was He that was running hard after me. Throughout my life there have been times where I would seek God, usually when I felt things were going ok and He would be proud of me. It was always during those dark times when I truly needed Him that I turned my back on Him.
Rather recently, I was going through a dark time and I found myself lost and didn’t know where to turn. God spoke to me in that moment and said, “I am here my daughter, you are not alone.” Now, at that point I was a recently separated mom of tween girls and I knew there was no way I was getting through this without God. I took the girls and we began visiting local churches looking for a new church home. God guided us through several and then during the Christmas season of 2011, we visited a local church that felt like home. The girls and I began attending regularly and I found that I sought a deeper more meaningful relationship with God. I began with morning devotionals, time that I devoted to God and His word. Every day I would end my time with Him praying for Him to guide my steps and allow me to do His will. In March of 2012, I attended the women’s conference that my church hosts every year and during that conference God spoke to my heart in a way that I had not felt since I was a very young girl and he called my name during Sunday school and I found salvation. I am sharing this because it is important to where we are going, God spoke to me and told me that I was going to make drastic changes in my life. I was going to leave a career that offered security for my girls and myself and embark on a journey that would allow me to serve Him. I had been contemplating starting a side business to do as I was teaching, but leave teaching and totally invest in this new career? This new career would take me to foreign countries where I could share the gospel? I just didn’t understand that…but, in the end I said “Yes to God!” Now, it is 17 months later and I have started a new business and in the last 2 months have been on two mission trips with my daughters. Our first mission was to New Orleans, LA and it was moving and life changing for myself and the girls. I saw God work as I shared the gospel in the French Quarter and as we served the children of the ninth ward who have seen such incredible tragedy in their young lives, yet know how to love without reservation. I saw lives changed when a 19 year old homeless girl connected with my daughters and accepted Christ and sought help from a local church because she wanted better for her unborn child. I have had a “glimpse of eternity” in those moments and in so many moments before and after. I said “Yes to God,” and it has made all the difference.
We also went to Costa Rica on mission this summer, but I think that is best left for another entry.
May God bless each and every one of you.